On feeling insecure
posted on Saturday, December 8, 2012 @ 2:08 AM
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This topic is so familiar to me with my endless arguments with myself that happens every so often inside my head.

I often question myself, if I should try harder.
It's almost like I need to shut out everything and hide myself in a box to barely feel like I'm not suffocating.
Feel me.
Take off the mask I use to face the vast majority.
Maybe it's just a mood swing.
Maybe it'll pass real soon.
It did.
And it came back.

I wish I knew more.
Maybe reading psychology would actually help.
Why this sense of worthlessness.
Of being rejected.
Of not being accepted.
Reluctance to step out of my own comfort zone.
We all fear new situations.
Unsure.
Not wanting to be held responsible.

This is about me as much as it is about you.
I don't know if it has anything to do about our past but I would say it definitely impacted our lives in an unseen way.
I don't know why I'm bringing this up again but I know that my experience is what made me stronger.
It is all part of growing up and I hate to say that we have to do just that.
Grow up.
Countless times I hope I can stay a kid with that innocent smile on my face all day long, just running around the house, sticking close to my family.
Reality sucks but at least we all have to face it.
You're not alone.
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