我放下了吗？
posted on Wednesday, August 15, 2012 @ 11:59 PM
with 0 comments
深夜聊天。
倾心对话。
我，真的放下了吗？

我很幸运。
因为我的记性不好，难过的事总是容易淡忘。
虽说如此，那段往事的却费了我不少心。
还比较靠近那段日子时，常常忆起的。
如今，时隔多年。
若不是这样的场合提起了，我也确实很久没有想过他们了。
那几年，我时不时会花心思去反省。
为什么？
刻意地去挑起那些事情。
想。
思考。
I hope I didn't walk away from the whole lesson without learning something.
Growing up.
I believe we were too young.
Both us and them.
It was foolish.

但若在见到他们，该如何反应？
闪躲？
我并不畏惧什么。
I did not, after all, do anything against my conscience.
Say hi?
That would be so effing awkward right?
沦落为陌生人。
就像许多之前遇见的人一样。
Be it acquaintances, past friends whom you never talk to already, those who you had held so close to your heart.
人与人之间的缘分，我想不通。
Why arrange for two persons to meet and perhaps come together for a period of time and then let the meet as strangers who don't even smile and nod?
Not a word of concern, "How have you been?"
"Let's eat together!"
人与人之间的关系，好难维持。
It takes two hands to clap, after all.

And I see that, I have sidetracked.
Coming back to the topic, I would think the answer is yes.
我放下了。
Because only stupid people hold on to the past.
Especially onto bad memories.
Well, that and most of the memories of what happened had faded.
Into a blur where I almost can't distinguish the whos and the whats.
也没什么原谅不原谅的。
小时候谁没做过傻事？
谁不曾伤害人？
如果重来，我们或许还能是朋友。
发生的事情，即使淡去却不能抹去。
心中的疙瘩或许永远都会存在。
偶尔被触动，心也就揪一下。
连为什么都忘了。
Because all that's bad can and would be forgotten.
Leave us the happy memories.
The fun.
The laughter.

难以启齿的伤痛，留在心里，藏在最深的那个角落。
它会逝去。


Blogged 28.08.2012.
1.52am
layout by fourteenroses with colours and banners