I cried.
posted on Sunday, March 10, 2013 @ 12:27 AM
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Last night I experienced a mild breakdown.
I can't say that I've fully recovered but the love of my few QADs has really managed to pull me back to the brim before I sink further down.

I know that it's always been a problem of mine actually, volunteering for stuff and then mentally chiding myself for taking up the jobs because no one bother to.
Can't stand how people just ignore pleads and requests posted in urgency or of importance.
Sometimes selflessness really isn't a good trait.
Seem so noble of me but I think I'm just plain dumb.
Loads of work piled together and I just can't take it anymore.
Last minute decision.
That was the last straw.
I broke.

So tired of begging people.
So sick of listening to the excuses being weaved.
Hell, like I'm not going through midterms myself.
Really grateful to those who have provided help at these times of need.
It just shows who are the ones you can trust.
And who not.
Unreliable people.
Broken promises.

I want to thank Sihui QAD for talking to me when I just miss you so much.
I want to thank Joan QAD for trying to cheer me up but instead making me cry harder because you remind me of how good you are to me.
I want to thank Yi Teng QAD for helping me kick the trigger of my breakdown (mentally) and xin teng-ing me.
I want to thank Aun Tyin QAD for coming down to accompany me to buy present and cake.

I want to thank Wei Siang and Shu Wei daddy for helping me collect sponsorship items when you guys are totally not obliged to.
I want to thank Kwan Yong, Ben and Qi Rong for offering to help me buy the items (after my constant pestering, but still).
I want to thank my bizmags who have been responsive lately, and helping out with the collection of sponsorship items, especially Yogi.
I want to thank the random (and not so random) people who have been helping out in the preparation of SPARKZ and the dry runs, for allowing the events to happen.

I appreciate all gestures of good will even though I may not be able to express it well.
Planning of SPARKZ is definitely an unforgettable experience with all tastes of sweet, bitter and sour.
Let's hope it's the sweet taste of success I would remember after the event :)


是逞强或坚强
委屈都自己扛
我以为那是一种退让
是一种善良
- 逞强/插班生

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